Don't feel bad. You're not the first to have fallen for the cardboard figure with a soothing, genteel voice, a gaining smile and statuesque pose. Many, many have been there before you and it's likely there will be many to come somewhere down the road. I understand. You wanted the dream, regardless of the reality.
You wanted the false hope, afterall, any hope is better than none at all. Right? It too is better than actually having to put in the hard work and time needed to make real change. You liked the tingly feelings he gave you as you gazed upon his magnificence standing before those ivory pillars of greatness. Don't fret. Every school-girl and boy crush starts that way. If all goes according to plan that crush becomes a courtship. Then there is the actual wedding, again, a glorious affair where hopes are high and the future, at least in your own mind, looks bright and promising.
But, then there is the everyday life of marriage, responsibitlity and you soon learn that your dream lover is really a two-timing liar who sold you a bill of goods and you fell for it tooth and nail. It's not because the signs weren't always there for you to see. It wasn't, or was it...because had you really listened to your gut, your wiser friends or just took the time to focus a little closer scrutiny for yourself at who and what you were getting.... There was no time for that in the courtship or on that wedding day, the ride was too thrilling to concern yourself over such trivial matters.
However, now it's crunch time, the rubber has met the road, your unfaithful lover has been weighed in the scales and found seriously wanting.
Worse still - He Lied TO YOU!